Shopping sucks

Nothing like a trip to the mall to make one feel awful. I went shopping with my daddy today. He wanted to get me 2 nice interview suits and shoes and what not so I felt confident and looked good going to my interviews/TRD next week. Unfortunately it did not start out as a good trip.


If I needed a reason to keep up with working out and eating right today was it! I could not find really anything I liked. Only shopping at 1 store (Lane Bryant is the only place that carries talls and I am 6') is certainly limited and when they don't have anything professional enough I am in trouble. I ended up with a nice jacket, a shirt, and a sort of 40's style (my favorite fashion era) shirt dress that makes me feel confident and sexy. But I still wanted to cry in the dressing room because there was just nothing and I felt fat and frumpy and awful. It certainly helped me to make better choices for dinner tonight! I have some Mary Jane pumps (look sort of like character shoes) on order and zinging my way and a whole set up of really good bare minerals make up in my possession so the day was certainly not a waste, but it was hard to not just curl up and cry.


I also did my Day 3 life coaching homework today and have written down some of my top ten goals for the next 12 months. A couple I will share today:

1. lose 115lbs
2. compete in a figure competition
3. get a teaching job

My push goal (the goal that makes the others possible is get a teaching job. I really want to do well at my interviews, and I think my new suit/make up/shoes will help me feel confident and smart as I interview. I am hopeful.