Still have to do Fire 45 E-Z tonight, but I am looking forward to it.
I love my husband, adore him more than is reasonable much of the time. He is thoughtful, appreciative, and even occasionally romantic - I mean he is a guy, so I figure occasionally is pretty good... However, he is a diet saboteur. A thoughtful one, but a saboteur none the less. I can resist junk food that is not in the house. For the most part I can resist much of the junk that is IN the house. I cannot resist my favorites when they are brought to me with love. He brought me hostess cupcakes this afternoon. I have major chocolate needs on a daily basis any way and this undid me. I did not ask for it, I didn't even really think of it (except in passing) but I scarfed down those cakes like a starving woman.
This is part of my process, and certainly something I need to learn. How do I look at cake and not eat so much of it that I make myself sick? How do I politely take, and then never eat - favorite foods brought lovingly to me? In large part I am doing better with food, but it is a constant struggle. I stop nearly every day for a piece of chocolate after school. I am ashamed when I do it, I eat it compulsively with no joy and more guilt than I care to admit. And I still do it everyday. I need to find a way to live without sweet. Not sweets, but sweet in general. I love honey and raw sugar and maple syrup and sweetened coffee with splenda... but I think this is all bad for me. I need to find a way to limit or cut out completely my need for a sweet fix during the day. But where do I start?
I know what you mean. I am on day eleven with no sugar right now. It was consuming my life, and like you, I ate it with out even tasting it after the first few bites. I wish I could do a happy medium, but I have been an all or nothing person for so long. You have my sympathy and understanding.
ReplyDeleteYou need to try chocolate vitatops with a dollop of Ready wip on them, <3 100 calories for the vitatop and 20 calories for a tasty treat that will satisfy your chocolate craving and yes while "diet" whip cream is probably fewer calories, it's just not the same, splurge on the 20! Also once you try it and you decide if you like it or not, tell your hubby if it is your new favorite snack so he can bring you those instead :D (worked for me, now my husband doesn't bring home oatmeal cream pies for me and I don't feel guilty having a vita top or sometimes 2 ;) )
ReplyDeleteCrystal - thanks for the sympathy!
ReplyDeleteKat - excellent suggestion. I will have to pick up some of those vita tops when I go grocery shopping this week. And I am super impressed that you can get the hubby to bring you those instead of oatmeal cream pies (another one of my downfalls!)
Yes, I agree with the Vitatops. My freezer is full of them right now. I also have the Vitabrownies. I eat one per day and make sure I sit down and enjoy it. I definitely understand what you mean about your hubby being a diet sabateour. Mine is, too! He gets irritated that I talk about weightloss and calories so much, but this is the only way I can let him know how serious I am about dropping these pounds! lol
ReplyDeleteAlso I think its cool that you're doing Turbo Fire. I just ordered it yesterday and can't wait for it to come in the mail. :-) I'm following you on your journey. :-)
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