How do you make grown up friends?

I had an attack of the binges last night, piling unhealthy food on top of unhealthy food, trying to fill a void and stuff my feelings. It didn't work, I knew I was doing it and I actually made a concious decision at one point not to stop.

I really couldn't tell you why. I think it stemmed mainly from boredom and loneliness. I sent the hubby into town to have a birthday celebration with his friends - he doesn't do enough fun for himself. But even though I wanted him to go, I was a little resentful. Not that he went, but that not only didn't I get to go, but I won't have a similar situation pop up. I really don't have "live" friends anymore.

Don't get me wrong, I love my virtual friends and the support they give me, but I miss have girlfriends that I can go out with, and talk, or go shopping, or get coffee, or hell even just sit on the pier and chain smoke at 2AM (I occasionally miss smoking too, but it makes me horribly sick now). I miss going out with the girls and having girls to go out with. As much as I love my country life, it is a bit isolated.

Coupled with my tendency to be introverted (I am shy, but people who know me never believe that. I have trouble making new connections, but once I know a person I am a sharer) the isolation leads to an increased difficulty in finding new friends. And it becomes easier to hide behind my weight and blame that as a reason people won't talk to me and why I can't make friends.

BUT I did wake up this morning in a good mood, with no desire to even look at the unhealthy food I ate last night. I made King Arthur Flour English Muffin Bread before I went to bed last night using honey instead of sugar, whole wheat flour and a little flax seed for a fiber boost and it was ready this morning. The monkey, who rarely eats anything and almost never touches bread, ate 3 slices of this toasted with raspberry jam on it. I had about 2 slices - hard to tell as certain monkey & moose children kept stealing it from me - with low-fat cheddar cheese. I made gazpacho this afternoon (fresh salsa you can eat by the bowlful!) and I feel more in control of myself today. Still lonely, but that's okay.

How do you make grown up friends in "real life"?

Turbo Fire Day 7!

Okay - so I know I said yesterday was day five, but that was because my math sucks. TurboFire day 7 done! I did Fire55 EZ today and it was in no way E-Z! That was intense, I lost steam about 1/2 way through, but I pressed on to finish the whole thing at the intensity that I could manage. And Jack-Jack cooperated and stayed down for his nap for the whole workout (going up to get him now) and Jonas didn't beg to be picked up until 10 minutes from the end, so I was able to say "wait" and snuggle him happily at the end.

Now I have got to come up with some good lunch options for all of us. I am thinking a nice frittata packed with veggies - and some toast, because Jack-Jack is now addicted to toast!

Dinner will be a veggie packed baked ziti in the crockpot, thanks to Stephanie O'Dea. I will also be starting some yogurt in the other crock, and my multi-grain brown bread (King Arthur Flour rocks!) and I think some tortillas, and maybe prepping tortilla soup for tomorrow.