I was listen to Jillian Michaels' latest podcast today. In it she talked about making your home a sanctuary and how various parts of your home reflect you - or should. The part that really struck home with me today was how if you kitchen is a mess, if it is cluttered and disorganized it is reflective of how you feel-think-act towards your health. Wow. Anyone who knows me in "real life" knows that I am a slob. I don't mean to be, I don't want to be, I am getting help to be different, but this is my reality at least for now. And my kitchen is very often a DISASTER. Right now it is certainly not awesome-ness but in general it is far better than it has been in the past and certainly above and beyond when it has been the worst. In the last month it has been not too bad. And in the last month I have been focusing more and more on my health, my fitness, my weight loss, my need for a clean and organized mind/body/life.
When I focus on me I notice the chaos around me. I care. I want to be different. When I focus on everyone/thing else, I see the chaos, but I don't care. I mean I care if it is approaching health hazard state, but I am so worn down and tired and overwhelmed by everything that I just can't seem to find the... I don't the whatever to deal with the chaos.
You hear over and over again how its important - especially for women - to make yourself a priority when you are trying to be fit and healthy. Mom needs to put herself first sometimes because she will be happier and that will make her a better, stronger, happier mother. And if you are a mother (or woman or caregiver of any kind) that advice tends to go in one ear and out the other. But in this last month or so I have put myself, well not necessarily first, but at least not last. And as I move "me" up the priority list I am happier, I do feel better, I am a better wife and mother. And I am positive that when I get to be #1 on the list I will have the clean and organized kitchen to prove it. I'll even post pictures.
Rested yesterday, 4 more miles today including speed/C25K training.
Tuesday, July 12, 2011
My new favorite lunch
Homemade gazpacho, homemade hummus, fresh bell pepper, fresh cucumbers, little mozzarella pearls in my soup. Super yum.
Sunday, July 10, 2011
Business to Blogger
My main purpose for writing this blog is to keep myself accountable to others as I travel on my fitness journey. I enjoy the writing, the comments, and the friendships I have formed through doing this.
And while my main goal is not about making money or supporting myself and my family through the blog, I know that extra income is possible - along with interesting products to review. With that in mind when I saw a Business2Blogger button on a new blog I have been following (Mommy to Marathon) I thought it was worth checking out.
Business 2 Blogger connects businesses with bloggers (simple right). It gives both a chance to expand and reach a broader market base. I am excited that it will give me a chance to reach out to fitness themed businesses that can help me and my readers o our fitness journeys.
So I have signed up with Business 2 Blogger - so you may see posts in the future that I am asked to post or review. This will be a good thing, it will give me a chance for a little extra money to help my family and it will help my readers learn about new ideas or products that they may not get a chance to see otherwise. Of course anything you see on here will still be up front and honest, and if I write a post, paid or not, everything stated will be my true opinion, so when I recommend something it is because I truly believe in it.
And while my main goal is not about making money or supporting myself and my family through the blog, I know that extra income is possible - along with interesting products to review. With that in mind when I saw a Business2Blogger button on a new blog I have been following (Mommy to Marathon) I thought it was worth checking out.
Business 2 Blogger connects businesses with bloggers (simple right). It gives both a chance to expand and reach a broader market base. I am excited that it will give me a chance to reach out to fitness themed businesses that can help me and my readers o our fitness journeys.
So I have signed up with Business 2 Blogger - so you may see posts in the future that I am asked to post or review. This will be a good thing, it will give me a chance for a little extra money to help my family and it will help my readers learn about new ideas or products that they may not get a chance to see otherwise. Of course anything you see on here will still be up front and honest, and if I write a post, paid or not, everything stated will be my true opinion, so when I recommend something it is because I truly believe in it.
My first Vlog :)
Be gentle with me :) 6.5 more miles today
Walking to the neighbors for a little cookout - they got me veggie burgers :) aren't they sweet!
Walking to the neighbors for a little cookout - they got me veggie burgers :) aren't they sweet!
Saturday, July 9, 2011
Adding my miles
I am on my way to keeping up my mileage challenge. :)
4 miles today.
I do need some suggestions on music to help me go the "extra mile". What do you have on your playlist that helps you keep going?
4 miles today.
I do need some suggestions on music to help me go the "extra mile". What do you have on your playlist that helps you keep going?
Thursday, July 7, 2011
Journey of 1111.11 miles - can I still make it?
Last November I set out to walk/run/jog "wog" :) 1111.11 miles by 11/11/11. It was a completely reasonable and doable goal at the time and I could totally have made it (be well on my way with over 500 miles by now) if I had stuck with my walking.
But I didn't stick with it. I procrastinated, I let other things get in the way, I put myself last, and I spent a good portion of the first half of the year not working out at all. I'm still having trouble getting in my workout in every day, but I think if I commit and work hard I could still do this - or at least come very close. It would require walking between 8&9 miles a day on average, or 60 miles a week, but I really believe if I do this right, I can come damn close - so right now my goal is 20,000 steps or 10 miles a day at least 6 days a week. I am going to have to get a new pedometer to help - at least until I can afford a Fitbit or Bodymedia device.
A large part of getting myself on track with this will be when I go out to Vegas in a couple weeks to visit my mom. I plan to use her state of the art fitness facility in her apartment complex to its full advantage while I am there.
So I will be a walking wogging stepping phenom in short order!
But I didn't stick with it. I procrastinated, I let other things get in the way, I put myself last, and I spent a good portion of the first half of the year not working out at all. I'm still having trouble getting in my workout in every day, but I think if I commit and work hard I could still do this - or at least come very close. It would require walking between 8&9 miles a day on average, or 60 miles a week, but I really believe if I do this right, I can come damn close - so right now my goal is 20,000 steps or 10 miles a day at least 6 days a week. I am going to have to get a new pedometer to help - at least until I can afford a Fitbit or Bodymedia device.
A large part of getting myself on track with this will be when I go out to Vegas in a couple weeks to visit my mom. I plan to use her state of the art fitness facility in her apartment complex to its full advantage while I am there.
So I will be a walking wogging stepping phenom in short order!
Sunday, July 3, 2011
How do you make grown up friends?
I had an attack of the binges last night, piling unhealthy food on top of unhealthy food, trying to fill a void and stuff my feelings. It didn't work, I knew I was doing it and I actually made a concious decision at one point not to stop.
I really couldn't tell you why. I think it stemmed mainly from boredom and loneliness. I sent the hubby into town to have a birthday celebration with his friends - he doesn't do enough fun for himself. But even though I wanted him to go, I was a little resentful. Not that he went, but that not only didn't I get to go, but I won't have a similar situation pop up. I really don't have "live" friends anymore.
Don't get me wrong, I love my virtual friends and the support they give me, but I miss have girlfriends that I can go out with, and talk, or go shopping, or get coffee, or hell even just sit on the pier and chain smoke at 2AM (I occasionally miss smoking too, but it makes me horribly sick now). I miss going out with the girls and having girls to go out with. As much as I love my country life, it is a bit isolated.
Coupled with my tendency to be introverted (I am shy, but people who know me never believe that. I have trouble making new connections, but once I know a person I am a sharer) the isolation leads to an increased difficulty in finding new friends. And it becomes easier to hide behind my weight and blame that as a reason people won't talk to me and why I can't make friends.
BUT I did wake up this morning in a good mood, with no desire to even look at the unhealthy food I ate last night. I made King Arthur Flour English Muffin Bread before I went to bed last night using honey instead of sugar, whole wheat flour and a little flax seed for a fiber boost and it was ready this morning. The monkey, who rarely eats anything and almost never touches bread, ate 3 slices of this toasted with raspberry jam on it. I had about 2 slices - hard to tell as certain monkey & moose children kept stealing it from me - with low-fat cheddar cheese. I made gazpacho this afternoon (fresh salsa you can eat by the bowlful!) and I feel more in control of myself today. Still lonely, but that's okay.
How do you make grown up friends in "real life"?
I really couldn't tell you why. I think it stemmed mainly from boredom and loneliness. I sent the hubby into town to have a birthday celebration with his friends - he doesn't do enough fun for himself. But even though I wanted him to go, I was a little resentful. Not that he went, but that not only didn't I get to go, but I won't have a similar situation pop up. I really don't have "live" friends anymore.
Don't get me wrong, I love my virtual friends and the support they give me, but I miss have girlfriends that I can go out with, and talk, or go shopping, or get coffee, or hell even just sit on the pier and chain smoke at 2AM (I occasionally miss smoking too, but it makes me horribly sick now). I miss going out with the girls and having girls to go out with. As much as I love my country life, it is a bit isolated.
Coupled with my tendency to be introverted (I am shy, but people who know me never believe that. I have trouble making new connections, but once I know a person I am a sharer) the isolation leads to an increased difficulty in finding new friends. And it becomes easier to hide behind my weight and blame that as a reason people won't talk to me and why I can't make friends.
BUT I did wake up this morning in a good mood, with no desire to even look at the unhealthy food I ate last night. I made King Arthur Flour English Muffin Bread before I went to bed last night using honey instead of sugar, whole wheat flour and a little flax seed for a fiber boost and it was ready this morning. The monkey, who rarely eats anything and almost never touches bread, ate 3 slices of this toasted with raspberry jam on it. I had about 2 slices - hard to tell as certain monkey & moose children kept stealing it from me - with low-fat cheddar cheese. I made gazpacho this afternoon (fresh salsa you can eat by the bowlful!) and I feel more in control of myself today. Still lonely, but that's okay.
How do you make grown up friends in "real life"?
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