So 2 days in a row I have been late to my student teaching job. The first 2 days of my student teaching. Why have I been late? Because I keep getting stuck in the snow in my driveway. Since my driveway is all dirt and gravel we generally don't shovel. My superb winter tires on my Ford Taurus can usually just power right through the snow - however with all the freeze and melt I keep spinning out on the ice/refreeze/runoff and slid into the dirt embankments.
This morning's adventures I feel was karmic payback for ignoring my alarm and sleeping an extra hour instead of getting in an extra workout this morning. I will not being doing that again! Instead of getting in extra cardio this morning I got to spend an hour shoveling the ice and hard packed snow out of my driveway with a garden shovel. In sneakers. And slacks. And a dress shirt. With the boys in the car. Okay actually I took the boys back inside and put on a movie for them as soon as I called AAA, but still. It was not fun and for the rest of the day my feet were cold, my booty was super sore, and my slacks were wet.
I wanted to talk myself out of my workout tonight, but as I was changing into workout gear after work I noticed that I could feel the muscles and bones in my back and hips much easier than before. My hips still have a few layers on fat on top of them, but the curve from my waist to my hips feels slimmer and smoother than it did just a few weeks ago.
I wanted to ignore my workout tonight, but then I thought of the people who have told me - through the blog, or email, or Facebook or in person - how proud they are, how I am motivating or inspiring them. I thought of how proud I am of myself. I did not want to disappoint us.
I wanted to sit on my couch and eat giant greasy dripping steak subs on a squishy soft white sub roll, but then I thought about how I am trying to get rid of my "white food" cravings and addictions (white rice, white flour, white sugar - even though I am Irish to the bone I have never been a fan of white potatoes :)) and bought high fiber whole wheat pita pockets and lean steak for a sandwich. I grilled the steak with baby spinach and a drizzle of soy sauce and added half a slice of cheese, and stuffed it into the pitas. I grabbed 3 wilted stalks of celery (I didn't want chips, but did want some crunch) and had a satisfying and filling dinner.
I vowed that no one will recognize me a year from now - I am starting not to recognize myself now. And I couldn't be happier with this new person.
I'm proud of you Becky! You ARE inspiring!
ReplyDeleteHey Becky, food is always such a hard struggle, something that really helped me was when my coach, Amy Shaw, told me that before I could start losing weight I needed to figure out what caused my emotional eating to begin with. For me I had allowed bitterness and anger towards other people to build up in my heart after years of being picked on and teased for being over weight. Allowing myself to start to heal those wounds helped me overcome a lot of my binge eating.
ReplyDeleteSo try to figure out what emotions are triggering your eating habits, it's not just the addiction to the junk food that we have to overcome, it's also emotions, the way the food allows us to feel when we have a bad day, or a good day. We need to pick foods that make us feel good, not that instant food high way that sugar tends to do, but in the sense of does my body feel clean inside, or does it feel greasy and awful and grumpy. (that's how I feel when I eat too much junk, greasy, awful and grumpy, with no energy at all.)
Keep it up girl! Every day you workout and choose the right foods is a victory, sometimes we might lose a battle but if we keep fighting we'll win the war.